Slacker

I skipped a few runs and man, did I feel terrible! I couldn't motivate myself to do the runs but, I felt so bad about not running. It kept getting worse and worse. What's funny is that every time I skipped I dreamed about running that night! Today I just went out and ran. It was good. I felt fine but, a little sluggish for the first mile and ready to be done by the last mile. I did 4.33 miles (12 min pace). I had a good runner's high for the middle two miles. I thought about the weird dreams I've been having (not the running dreams). In my dreams, I'm always leaving somewhere and packing and I'm late for wherever I'm going. I can't fit everything into the suitcases I have and I keep finding things I forgot to pack. I'm shoving things into bags and trying to decide what to take and what to leave (if anything). It's a never-ending process of packing. I can't quite figure out what the significance of the dream is but, it's obviously important because I have the dream about once a week. I want to just go wherever it is I'm late for and not bring anything with me if I can. A lot of times I have an awareness of dreaming in my dreams so, I'm hoping that if I can become aware in this dream that I can leave the suitcases and go to end the saga...
Anyway, Today was the first time I ran on the chipped path trails in Piney Orchard. It's very uneven footing with lots of twists and turns and hills. (That was the first mile). I just looked, listened, and breathed. I heard a woodpecker which was a real highlight of the run for me. I saw blue jays, robins, & cardinals. I saw squirrels and heard something larger moving around in the woods. I couldn't see what it was - maybe a fox or something of that size. I'm glad I got back out there. I was worried that I was falling out!